wait up, i think i forgot smtg.

past few weeks have been, well, traumatising. I mean, yes, i did get to spend time with my dearest family, we did get to eat and dine like a complete family, something that we get to do rarely, looking at the circumstances of how we live at being the factor.


We did have a post birthday celebration for december babies, mainly my dad, my dearest aunt, and i, and oh boy, did i pig out a lot. My aunt, or as i call her Mak, made ketupat, coz apparently, my uncle(Abah) wanted them so much. So yeah, ketupat on christmas day. A combo like no other.


For the past few days, I've been lurking at home, didn't try to practice driving, and played scrabble. I am so scrabbled so much so that I wanna puke it out right now in front of the comp.

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I notice that I have not blogged as often as I used to. Ironic, how I decided not to close it down, but have little to write. I often visualise this space as my own virtual paper, only that I can't draw things that would be associated to my thought.


Ironic, how I use to be able to spill every detail of my life to readers I don't even know, and yet now, it's a different story.

Readers know me, and it scares my subconscious mind, cause if this is true, they could judge me. Or worse, would they say bad things about me?

But then again, do they really know me?


I used to write my love letters here, not that there is none, but the space is too wide to succumb my peace and tranquility.

People, I do not know who, burdened me with hatred via comments, all yet to condemn me, in a way I do not understand and will never try to.

Now i channel it to things I dislike, things I hope to not exist. Things like how frustrated I am with ppl who do not share my piece of mind, how ppl would be ignorant to others' feelings, how they are, too opinionated so much so they forget things.

Things that I keep to myself from being mad. It's a place to channel my anger, when in reality, I can't. I think too much, often to disregard my satisfaction.


See, I don't even know where I am going with this post.

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stop bothering me, annonymous.
stop. that. annoying. habit. you. bastard.

hey annonymous.

get a life and go to hell.

reds.

i like this picture and i do not know why. been blardy eating for the past few days.



i feel healthy haha.